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A STORY OF HEALING AND RESTORATION By Dr. Patricia Venegas
As I reflect on the restoration power of the Lord and how he has touched my life, I thought of the many blessings God has bestowed upon me. He has changed Satan's devices of destruction into tools of restoration and healing. He redeemed my life from a lonely desert and transformed it into a well-watered garden of His love and compassion, all for His glory. When my parents married, my mother already had four children of her own. My father had none. They both believed they were unable to have children together. My father always wanted them, and I think that's why he married someone with so many children. Contrary to either of their beliefs, my mother conceived. But she had a lot of problems carrying me; the threat of miscarriage was evident throughout the entire pregnancy. Even in my mother's womb, God knew me and protected me. I was born healthy against all odds. I was born into a dysfunctional, alcoholic household. My father adored and favored me, which caused a lot of problems between my parents. As a result I felt a lot of resentment and rejection from my family. My life was filled with arguments, fights and police visits due to my parent's alcoholism, abusive behavior and lack of money. I found no refuge in my home. At school I was teased and alienated because I was poor and wore dirty old clothes. Many different people also had molested me.By age 12 my concept of love was distorted and rejection was all too familiar to me. I never learned to say no and I thought I had to please everyone in order to be loved and accepted. This led to me becoming pregnant by age 13. I was a child raising a child. I struggled through the rest of my teenage years and early adulthood searching for stability, love and acceptance. But I found only more emptiness and pain, primarily through dysfunctional and destructive relationships. I'm sure Satan must have thought he had certainly won this war, but what Satan meant for evil, God turned it into good. God has used everything in my life that Satan intended to destroy me with and turned it around into victory to glorify His name. God has healed my wounds, and removed the scars that stagnated my spiritual growth. Many Christians struggle because of life's hurts. They hide the wounds behind the doors of their hearts and cover them with shame and guilt.
Psalm 51:6 say, "surely you desire truth in the inner parts. " God desires access to all those closed doors of our hearts to heal and make us whole. He longs to bring in His truth and disperse the lies Satan has imprisoned us with. Satan caused these hurts. He has come to rob, kill and destroy, but Jesus has come that we might have abundant life. God gave me a vision of two brides; the first was filthy, covered with oil and dirt. Her hair was a mess and her gown torn and ragged. She looked terrible, she was certainly unprepared for her groom. The second bride was radiant; her gown was beautiful and white, and she had every hair in its perfect place; She was ready and awaiting her groom. The Lord told me that the first bride is how He sees the church today, and the second bride is the church He is returning for. God has called me into a ministry of inner healing and deliverance. Christians who have these inner hurts cannot be as effective as they should be for the kingdom of God because so often they stay stuck and are unable to move on with God until they are healed and sometimes they need deliverance from strongholds in their lives. In my ministry I have seen God's awesome works time and time again healing and delivering His bride. The Lord gave me Isaiah chap. 61, "The spirit of the Lord is upon me, because the Lord has anointed me to preach good tidings to the poor. He has sent me to heal the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to those who are bound: To proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn in Zion. To give them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness that they may be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord that He may be glorified." I am now living a victorious restored life in Chino Hills with my husband Ben and one of our Four children Michelle. My eldest daughter Pam is married and has four children, My Daughter Deborah is married and has a son. My Son Thomas is a Designer that does all of my graphic artwork. My husband Rev. Benjamin and myself are the founders of Without Spot or Wrinkle Ministries International.